Where's My Bread?

Wow. What the Lord has been teaching me lately is so so sweet. Not easy that is for sure, but surely sweet. I don't know if many of you have felt this way, but I know I sure have, but it's really hard when you are just sitting at home watching your favorite shows when all your friends and it seems everyone else is being used by the Lord in other places of the world, and you just don't feel like you are. Well that's exactly how I have felt. My best friend in this world is in Africa being faithful to what the Lord has called her to do, and I'm just at home. Sometimes it makes me feel as if I'm not being used by the Lord and also makes me feel as if I'm not worthy to be used. To say this lie is from the devil is an understatement. Praise the Lord that He has been so faithful to open my eyes to this lie. I have seriously prayed and prayed as to what the Lord would have me to do, and He's being kinda silent. I started to get frustrated and doubting all my summer plans and wondering if I should've done something else with my summer. It's seriously crazy how the Lord works. I was scared of boredom, loneliness, and frankly just becoming stagnant in my relationship with the Lord. Seriously once I have these doubts and these thoughts come into my mind..He sends someone my way. Someone to encourage. Someone to love. Someone to give of myself to..which is what each of us are called to in this world. So where is my bread? Where is your bread? In Matthew 15: 29-37 there are two stories that I really want to touch on. The first part is verses 29-31. These verses talk about how Jesus was teaching on a mountain along the sea of Galilee. People that were brought to him were sick, lame, mute, deaf, and anything else awful you could think of to be healed. The part that really struck me and really just encouraged my heart was the part that all these people had no hope really and they were sick and were looked on by society. Lately, I have felt like I had no hope. I have felt worthless, but you know what?! God healed them. Just like God can heal YOU from sexual sin, from gossiping, from drinking or drugs...from whatever has a hold on you. From whatever you think is going to ruin you. HE alone can heal you. There is nothing but the blood of Jesus that can heal you. Bring Him your troubles and He will wrap His arms around you to show you how great His love is. The next set of verses is 32-37, and this is talking about how Jesus fed the four thousand. The best part to me about these verses is in verse 32, Jesus says "I feel compassion for the people." When you are hurting, hungry, and whatever else..what a joy to know that the Savior of the world, the King of Kings, the Lover of our souls has compassion on us. If that doesn't bring you to tears and thankfulness I don't know what will. Jesus provided for them. He gave the bread to the disciples and then they gave to the multitudes. When the Lord provides for us in any area of our lives, He gives us enough to also encourage and love other people. I can use my own life as an example of this lately. I have felt like I couldn't love people because I wasn't feeling the love myself. (Which was a lie) But the Lord once He showed me and wrapped me in those arms of His gave me people to encourage and give to. He can do the same for you. He is a redeemer. He loves you. Far beyond what any other person on this earth can love you. There is nothing that He cannot do for you. He can heal you from whatever you're struggling with. HE alone can give you hope. Don't look any farther. There's no use. ONLY Jesus.